Thursday, 21 February 2013

One in Five People Consider Suicide

ASIST facilitator Mark Logan (far left) and course
participants at NUI Galway.  Photo c/o NUIG Students' Union

AT ANY given time, one in five people will have suicidal thoughts. This fact was one of many eye-opening statistics shared with students who took part in a suicide first aid course in NUI Galway last week. 

Participants were also informed that people who have made a previous suicide attempt are 100 times more likely to die by suicide.

The aim of the Applied Suicide Intervention Skills Training course is to equip partakers with the required skills to identify when somebody might be depressed or suicidal.

Students were taught how to connect with, understand and assist an individual who is experiencing suicidal thoughts or tendencies.

The initiative was originally due to take place in the college in October but was cancelled due to HSE cutbacks.

Following the controversial decision, the Students’ Union lobbied the Government and funding was restored.

The hands-on training programme took place on campus on February 14 and 15 and eighteen students attended.

“ASIST courses are hugely important globally – evaluations have shown that where ASIST is being rolled out extensively amongst communities, the incidence of suicide has dropped,” said Mark Logan, ASIST trainer and Regional Manager at RehabCare West.

“People come in feeling worried and anxious about the course and leave feeling confident about what they can do.

“The evaluations are universally excellent because people leave with a set of skills and confidence to know what to do if somebody is at risk of suicide,” Mr Logan added.

Joanna Brophy, Assistant Manager of NUIG’s Students' Union, stated: “It was great to work with Headsup and we look forward to running the course again, most likely in October 2013.”

The model for the ASIST course was originally developed by the Canadian mental health initiative LivingWorks in 1982. The programme is the most widely used suicide intervention training course in the world – over one million people have been trained globally.

The NUIG Students’ Union has been running the two-day ASIST course on campus once a semester since 2009.

In Ireland the course is facilitated by the HSE and Headsup – a Rehab Group initiative that promotes positive mental health among young people.

Over the past decade, some 25,000 people have participated in the ASIST programme nationally.

In 2011, the last year for which records are available, there were 525 reported cases of death by suicide in this country.

State funding of €35 million has been earmarked for spending in the mental health sector in 2013; the same amount as last year.

In January Kathleen Lynch, Minister of State with responsibility for Mental Health, spoke of the Government’s future plans in this area. As part of their bullying action scheme, a programme that promotes positive mental health in secondary schools has been launched.

At a practice-based level, two specialist nurses are to be stationed in each suicide unit in Ireland. A joint initiative with the Irish College of GPs that will increase doctor training on the subject has also been introduced.

For further information on mental health support, text HEADSUP to 50424 or visit www.headsup.ie. Details on ASIST and other mental health courses are available on the National Office for Suicide Prevention website – www.nosp.ie. For additional information on RehabCare West, telephone 091 755 686 or email mark.logan@rehab.ie.


This article was published on Headsup.ie and also featured in today's edition of The Connacht Tribune.

Monday, 18 February 2013

Hat's Off: What’s in a Name?


Image c/o: 3.bp.blogspot.com
THERE was sheer delight etched on his face when he figured it out: Órla is an anagram of oral (the fada is optional, but does add an extra dimension of the exotic).  

At that very moment, my classmate might as well have discovered the Higgs boson. 

Naturally, 16-year-old me was teased for a few days. Luckily, many teenagers have an attention span shorter than a tadpole’s trousers so they promptly forgot and we all moved on with our lives.

The birth of Amy Huberman and Brian O’Driscoll’s daughter received mass media coverage last week. 

Until her name, Sadie, was released, the baby had been dubbed ‘Huberbod’ in a mangled amalgamation of her parents’ names. Rumours that this is actually her middle name have not yet been confirmed.

Sadie can breathe a sigh of relief – she could just have easily been called Aviva. Celebrities have a habit of giving their progeny bizarre monikers. The classics Moon Unit, Dweezil and Diva Thin Muffin (triple props to Frank Zappa) are often name-dropped in this regard.

Other gems include Sage Moonblood (bestowed by Sylvester Stallone, of course), Pilot Inspektor (offspring of Jason Lee of ‘My Name is Earl’ fame), Moxie Crimefighter (seed of Penn Jillette), God’Iss Love Stone (daughter of Lil’ Mo’ – singer and fan of apostrophes) and Tu (which isn’t remotely funny until you find out his dad is actor Rob Morrow).

Good ol’ regular folk are by no means innocent when it comes to dodgy names. In 2007, a couple from New Zealand met official opposition when they attempted to name their son 4Real, for real.

Pat and Sheena Wheaton were told they could not register the name because it included a digit. Mr Wheaton said he came up with the novel name after seeing his son in an ultrasound scan and realising their baby was "for real". Quite.

The parents continue to use their preferred choice at home but had to give their child a different legal name. So what did they choose? Something a bit more normal? Stephen? John? Ben? No, they finally settled on Superman. At least that looks better on his birth cert – 4Real Wheaton sounds like a fibre supplement.

To be fair, an unusual name is not necessarily the baptism of fire it has been labelled. Having a common forename can present an equal number of problems, albeit slightly more boring ‘Which Mary do you mean?’ kind of scenarios. Originality must meet practicality half way.

Even with the best intentions in the world, parents can lumber their child with a terrible burden from day one. A name is not just for Christening, it’s for life. What may seem like a sweet, unique idea in infancy can become prime ammunition for bullies a few years down the line.

Yes, the Toy Story trilogy is a childhood classic but calling your kid Woody borders on child abuse. At least make bullies do some of the work themselves – it’ll improve their vocabulary if nothing else.

Naming your child after the celebrity du jour on a whim is extremely short-sighted. Psy Callaghan is not particularly likely to stand the test of months, let alone years. And as bootylicious as your baby is, Beyoncé O’Regan just doesn’t sit well.

Names are, obviously, quite subjective – one person’s Apple is another’s mouldy peach. A moniker doesn’t even have to be outwardly odd to become a bone of contention.

A 15-year-old Icelandic girl recently made headlines for suing her native State for the right to legally use the name given to her by her mother: Blær (which translates as ‘light breeze’). Authorities deemed the name unsuitable as they didn’t think it was feminine enough.
Iceland, and other countries including Denmark and Germany, has strict laws on names - they must fit official grammar and pronunciation rules. The Icelandic Personal Names Register is a list of 1,712 male names and 1,853 female names that parents can choose from. Officials maintain the list protects children from embarrassment.

Potential teasing isn’t the only aspect of forward thinking one must factor in when legally labelling a human. What if that child grows up and falls in love with someone whose name is difficult to merge with their own? 

Where would we be without Brangelina or Kimye or our very own first couple, Mabina? These abbreviations save us precious seconds and make us sound like pompous assholes – two popular contemporary pursuits.

Of course, an adult can legally change their name if they so wish – just ask Snoop Sheep or whatever he’s calling himself these days. If you can’t be bothered going through this process – why not experiment with a nickname? 

I’ve been trying to convince people to call me KitKat because I’m prone to breaking things and went out of fashion several years ago. It hasn’t caught on yet, but – taking inspiration from the Wheatons – I plan to persevere.


This article was also published on Campus.ie and TheDailyShift.ie.

Tuesday, 12 February 2013

Fr Ted and the Central Bank: From one Irish institution to another

Image c/o Fr Ted Memes
“THIS DEBT is large, but that debt is far away.”

Flippancy aside, this comment pretty accurately sums up the promissory note situation in Ireland as it stands.

Unfortunately, it’s quite unlikely paraphrasing Fr Ted quotes will aid in simplifying any other aspects of Irish-European politics. Although, after the week we’ve had, little would surprise the electorate.

Following on from last week’s agreement with the European Central Bank (ECB), the Government no longer has to spend the next decade paying €3.06 billion annually in promissory notes. Instead, they – or rather Irish taxpayers – will repay long-term bonds between 2038 and 2053.

Taoiseach Enda Kenny described the deal, which was facilitated by the early morning liquidation of the Irish Bank Resolution Corporation (IBRC) last Thursday, as “an historic step on the road to economic recovery”.

Some commentators have agreed, pointing to the fact that it will gift the Government with an extra €1 billion come Budget time and aid our exit from the bailout programme. Today’s announcement that ratings agency Standard & Poor’s has upgraded its outlook on the Irish economy from ‘negative’ to ‘stable’ would certainly appear to attest to the latter.

However, others have denounced the agreement, saying our public representatives have sold us out and placed increased levels of debt, albeit with a lower interest rate, on the next generation. What was originally banking debt is now sovereign debt – it’s ours for keeps.

Economist David McWilliams has warned that the Irish deal will be one of the factors that feed the ever-growing European bond market bubble until it bursts.

“We know that you never make a balance sheet with too much debt better with yet more debt. You make it better with less debt.

“Countries with huge debt/GDP ratios – such as Ireland – which add to their national debt in a cavalier way, will default in huge and dramatic fashion,” he stated.

Mr McWilliams believes an Irish default would not lead to us being cut off by the ECB – citing Greece as proof of this fact.

So where do we go from here? It seems as though many members of the general public believe we have little or no control over how our money is spent.

Tens of thousands of people attended marches protesting the debt burden over the weekend. Large crowds gathered in Dublin, Galway, Cork, Limerick, Sligo and Waterford to voice their disapproval of austerity measures.

The protests were organised by the Irish Congress of Trade Unions (ICTU) long before the debt deal was reached, but the date on which they were held proved to be extremely timely. At the Dublin-based protest, ICTU General Secretary David Begg stated that the fact Irish people are paying 42 per cent of the European banking debt burden was unfair.

People are undoubtedly frustrated and somewhat ‘out of the loop’ regarding the series of events that surrounded the promissory note deal.

Given that it is the European Year of Citizens and Ireland currently holds the presidency of the EU Council, one might have hoped that greater levels of communication with the public would have been evident.

The liquidation of the IBRC (formerly Anglo Irish Bank and Irish Nationwide) was all very cloak-and-dagger. However, it is true that the lead up to such events cannot be publicly shared for obvious financial reasons.

Finance Minister Michael Noonan said he was forced into passing the necessary legislation overnight on 6 February last due to leaks by Bloomberg.  He admitted the process had almost happened on a number of occasions in recent months, to the shock of some 800 IBRC employees.

On the day the promissory note deal was announced, Minister Noonan was interviewed on Pat Kenny’s RTÉ radio show. The pair had quite a jovial conversation about the legality, or lack thereof, of the deal.The minister described the initial deal that was put in place by the previous government three years ago as “totally” illegal. 

At this point, the men traded chuckles and agreed that there’s an element of truth in the opinion that many things in the EU “are illegal until someone does them and then they become OK”.  Hilarious stuff.

This admission gives credence to Mr McWilliams’ assertion that “The ECB was created by politicians” and “will be brought to heel by politicians”. 

Is our government one of a growing number of institutions that is seeking credit for cleaning up a mess they created in the first place?

As an electorate, are we powerless to stand up to our politicians and have our voices heard? As a nation, are we powerless to do the same to our counterparts in Europe?

Is Mario Draghi our Bishop Brennan? Is long-term debt the legacy we want to leave to the next generation? Perhaps it’s our collective attitude that needs a kick up the arse.


This article was also published in Student Independent News, NUI Galway's student newspaper, and on EuropeanMovement.ie, Campus.ie and TheDailyShift.ie.

Monday, 11 February 2013

Hat's Off: Loneliness or Insanity? That is the (Valentine's) question.

TO PARAPHRASE the great Dylan Moran, when it comes to relationships we are presented with two equally appealing options: loneliness or insanity.
 

Humans are demanding creatures. We need purpose, companionship, love, and regular distractions from the recurring disappointment that is life.
 

As we now find ourselves cast adrift in the vast limbo between major religious holidays, we begin searching for a day with minutely more significance than every other which surrounds it and is, essentially, exactly the same. So where do we look? Jesus? Overkill. 
Some major sporting event? 
Don’t go there. Pancakes? It’s been done.
 

Love? Bingo. Everyone loves love, right? Hence the appeal of Valentine’s Day – twenty four hours specifically designated to loving love. Yay. Don’t get me wrong, love is the best thing in the world – until the shit hits the fan.
 

Upon breaking up with someone, you become acutely aware that every single song, film, poem, book and basically the vast majority of any expression ever expressed boils down to love – or the lack thereof. 
 

When nursing a broken heart, this drove me fucking insane. I listen to the radio – a lot. Due to this fact, I developed a repetitive strain injury in my index finger from frantically switching stations. 
Every time inane chit chat gave way to someone conveying their emotions through the medium of song, I couldn’t take it.
 

This was doubly annoying as I adore music – we’ve been through a lot together but, not unlike my ex, we needed some time apart. To most, Video Killed the Radio Star. To me, they could’ve worked it out through couples’ counselling. Damn you, Buggles.
 

During my recuperation I found solace in Joe Duffy. I knew where I stood with him – the government was incompetent, the weather was crap, the economy was worse and, in general, everyone hated each other. His show highlights the fact we’re doomed and embraces it.
 

Once the initial, almost unbearable ‘Oh God, every song reminds me of you’ pang begins to subside, music can prove extremely helpful in the heart healing process.
 

Breakup songs are cathartic, wonderful things – and, as Taylor Swift will testify, economically viable entities. The songstress, at the tender age of 23, has made a career largely based on lambasting her errant exes through catchy little pop ditties. A lady doesn’t kiss and tell, but by God she will dump your ass and sing.
 

Swifty is a relatively new recruit to the scorned singers’ club. Odes to lovers past are as old as music itself. Roy Orbison’s Heartbreak Radio is essential listening whether or not your lady done gone and left. Janis Joplin’s cover of Piece of My Heart is one of the most gut-wrenching songs every sung. Ain't No Sunshine When She's Gone by Bill Withers drips into the ear canal like poisonous, bittersweet honey.
 

The heartbreak genre has taken on various forms throughout its existence, quite notably morphing into a behemoth in the ‘80s. Note to self: excess hairspray can lead to excess heartbreak (or perhaps vice versa). Whitesnake’s Here I Go Again on My Own and Total Eclipse of the Heart by Bonnie Tyler are particularly stellar examples of this.
 

Those inclined to line dance their way out of a love rut, had to wait until the ‘90s to find some solace. By God, their patience was rewarded. Billy Ray Cyrus signed, sealed and delivered on that. There are countless heartbreak tunes You Oughta Know from that decade.
 

Modern break-up songs tend to centre around expletives and the repetition of the word ‘ever’ – just not at the same time. Whatever your taste in music, someone’s got your back. And let’s face it; New York City didn’t burn down to the ground when your significant other walked away.
 

All I know is; my ex-box was no Atari and I can once again listen to the radio without ending up sporting a rather fetching finger cast. My rehabilitation is complete.
 

Valentine’s Day is a great idea in theory, but then again so was the mullet – and we all know where that got us.
 

So, if presented with the option again, what would I choose – sanity or company? The jury’s still out.


This article was also published in Student Independent News, NUI Galway's student newspaper, and on Campus.ie and TheDailyShift.ie.

Friday, 8 February 2013

Youth Media & the Irish Presidency: Vulnerable Families – What can Europe do?

Closing Plenary, Vulnerable Families Conference.
Photo: Órla Ryan
A CONFERENCE jointly organised by the Confederation of Family Organisations in the European Union (COFACE) and the Irish Countrywomen's Association (ICA).

Location: Dublin City Hall
Date: 5 February
Day 2 Summary


"I'm the world's biggest loser: I lost my place in the workforce; my friends; my social life; my pension rights; €12 of my carer's allowance - take any more and I'll lose my mind."

These were the last words the audience heard from the Head of Living Conditions at Eurofound during the Closing Plenary of the conference. By sharing this quote from an Irish carer, Richard Anderson also shared an insight into how difficult a carer's life can be.

"Research in Europe points consistently to carers of dependent children, adults or elderly relatives as particularly at risk of low income, of lack of information, of illness, isolation and basically invisibility for policy and practitioners, and these are the essential problems to which we need to respond and ask what contribution the European agenda can bring.

" . . . Many carers today are exposed to poverty and exclusion because they are not able to reconcile their care responsibilities with employment, and the alternative to employment is social benefits and public assistance which, as we all know across member states, are being challenged by austerity measures," Mr Anderson stated.

He spoke of the need to ensure the dignity of both those who require care and the carers themselves, adding that the EU has a responsibility to recognise carers in terms of legislation and support.

Carers were just one of a number of vulnerable groups discussed at the event.

The initial section of Day 2 was split into four breakout forums:
- Vulnerability due to ill health, mental health issues, disability, care;
- Extreme vulnerability - families outside of the reach of services;
- Vulnerability due to joblessness and lack of skills;
- Parenting support services.

These sessions included speakers from several Irish and European bodies including One Family (Ireland), Väestöliitto (the Family Federation, Finland) and SOS Children's Villages International (Austria).


"Extreme vulnerability stems from non-recognition, lack of visibility and stigma"
- William Lay (former director of COFACE), Chair of Extreme Vulnerability Talk

This session centred on Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender families; migrant families and women (both documented and undocumented); Roma families and those at risk of or experiencing homelessness.

Moninne Griffith, Director of Marriage Equality, gave a presentation on the vulnerability of LGBT families in Ireland.

"The Irish Constitution only recognises families based on marriage, so all the various diverse families that exist - be they of foster families, carers, families with different relatives caring for children - unfortunately don't fit that description and therefore are outside the scope of  protection and are exposed to extra vulnerability, and that includes LGBT families," Ms Griffith asserted.

She said the Civil Partnership legislation that was introduced here in 2011 "ignored the fact that many same sex couples have children" and "created a legal vacuum for these families". Marriage Equality's 'Missing Pieces' report highlights 160 statutory differences between civil partnership and marriage.

"Irish laws and public policy have not kept up with the changing reality of Irish families and largely ignore the children being raised by a parent or parents who are LGBT," Ms Griffith added. 

Discrimination and the failure of health services to recognise the statuses of such families were listed as other areas of particular concern in this regard.

In terms of migrant families and women, Elvira Mendez of Salud y Familia (Health and Family, Spain) stated that "second chances are crucial" when people seek help.

This sentiment was echoed by Ruth Owen of Feantsa (the European Federation of National Organisations Working with the Homeless). The group's 2012 Report 'On the Way Home?' analysed the main trends regarding homelessness in 21 countries over the past five years. Ireland was one of a number of member states that noted an increase in homelessness in three key demographics: youth, immigrants and women.

In the post-presentation discussion, Gráinne Healy, Chairperson of Marriage Equality and former Chair of the National Women's Council of Ireland, noted the intersectionality between the vulnerable groups in question and spoke of the moral imperative of protecting adults and children alike.

The current situation in the EU, and indeed beyond, was succinctly summarised by the President of COFACE, Annemie Drieskens, at the close of the conference: "Even with our best intentions and political will, so far we have failed to prevent further impoverishment." She listed growing inequality and youth unemployment as illustrations of this and described the latter as  a "ticking time bomb for societal change never seen before".

Should this bomb detonate, it will no doubt be the most vulnerable that will once again bear the brunt of the catastrophic consequences. As a union, we must act at every level - from grassroots to policy making - to ensure it is our services and support systems for such families, not this explosive device, that remain viable.


This article also appears on the European Movement Ireland website.

Thursday, 7 February 2013

We Need to Talk About Suicide

IN IRELAND close to 600 people die by suicide annually – three times the number of people killed on our roads. What can we do as a nation to help end this endemic? Órla Ryan talks to those who dedicate much of their lives to providing support for people dealing with mental health issues and the repercussions of suicide.

Image c/o Pieta.ie

There were 525 deaths by suicide reported in 2011, an increase of seven per cent on the previous year.

It is all too easy to become immune to hearing such statistics, but, as a community, we must remember that every figure masks a face; a human life. Those gone were a best friend, a child, a parent, a lover, a classmate.

Many factors contribute to a person ending their own life. Bea Gavin, Head of Counselling at NUI Galway, believes the recession has led to a sense of purposelessness for many.

“Thinking about suicide is much more common than we realise . . . you cannot know who will and who won’t go on to make an attempt, so it is important to offer support,” she says.

Ms Gavin notes that the number of students seeking guidance at the university’s counselling service “increases every year”, with almost 1,000 people attending in 2012.

Greater levels of communication and information on mental health are vital to help those in need. “Public campaigns have a big role to play. It is important to create an environment where these issues can be talked about,” Ms Gavin maintains.

She lists alcohol as a possible “trigger to a suicide attempt”, adding, “The culture of binge drinking is also significant in that a very high rate of suicidality is associated with alcohol use.”

Sandra Hogan, who works with Aware, echoes these sentiments. “Alcohol . . . is a disinhibitor, it can also impact on levels of self-anger and self-aggression,” she states.

“We need to be careful about the way we talk about suicide – it has become such a commonplace word that it is perhaps being viewed as an option by some people who are vulnerable,” Ms Hogan adds.

Self-mutilation is also an issue of immense concern. "There is a huge fear around self-harm with people being quite ashamed of their actions. Families are in deep distress and they need more help to manage," Pauline Bergin, a senior psychotherapist at Pieta House, affirms.

Like most suicide related charities, the volume of people contacting Pieta is increasing steadily. Over 3,000 people attended their Dublin and Longford centres in 2012 alone.

Ms Bergin advises people “to recognise when their loved one or friend is becoming more isolated, not interacting, not eating or sleeping.

“I would encourage them to seek help with either their local GP or counselling service . . . sooner rather than later.”

Young Men and Suicide

The Young Men and Suicide Report, compiled by the cross-border Men’s Health Forum, states that Ireland’s rate of suicide among young males is among the highest in the European Union. Some 165 and 72 young men killed themselves in the Republic and Northern Ireland respectively in 2011.
The report attributed the recent increase in suicides in this demographic to the economic downturn and unemployment.

The National Office for Suicide Prevention (NOSP) 2011 Annual Report shows that suicide is much more common among men than women. This rate has steadily increased from 8.4 per 100,000 in 1980 to 20 per 100,000 in 2009. NOSP works closely with the HSE to provide suicide prevention training and resource packs.

‘Mind your Man’ is a soon-to-be-launched campaign headed up by Pieta House that will encourage people to take action when a man shows signs of distress or suicidal tendencies. The charity’s CEO Joan Freeman will appear on The Late Late Show on February 8 to discuss the venture.

John Buckley, Youth Engagement Officer with SpunOut, believes we need to gain a greater understanding of how young Irish men think and learn what supportive factors work for them.

“In Ireland there has traditionally been a distinct lack of dialogue around suicide and this has potentially impacted on how young men perceive help-seeking and speaking up.

"Problems such as financial and relationship-related issues were seen as a weakness and reaching out was at times seen as 'not manly',” Mr Buckley states.

He is a firm believer in early intervention; prevention is always preferable to cure.

“We need to understand that positive mental health starts in the early years, not in a fire fighting battle when the problem is endemic.

 “It’s an extremely tough fight, but fighting stigma is something that has been successful in many areas, such as cancer, so it's a fight we can win,” he asserts.

The Scotland Model

Mary McTernan set up the GRASP (Greater Responsibility and Awareness in Suicide Prevention) Life Foundation four months ago. In 2004 she lost her only son Garry to suicide at the age of 24.

The charity aims to provide a full time suicide prevention, intervention and postvention service through training and counselling. It also facilitates support groups for those who have been bereaved through suicide. Since its inception, the organisation has worked with 43 crisis situations in the North West.

“Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem – there are ways around everything,” Ms McTernan states. 

She feels the Irish government should follow Scotland’s lead of increasing funding in the area of mental health.  Based on three-year rolling averages, there was a 17 per cent fall in suicide rates in Scotland between 2000 - 2002 and 2009 - 2011.

The Government has earmarked €35million for spending in this sector in 2013 – the same amount as last year.

Last week Kathleen Lynch, Minister of State with responsibility for Mental Health, spoke of the Government’s future plans in this area. As part of their bullying action scheme, a programme that promotes positive mental health in secondary schools has been launched.

At a practice-based level, two specialist nurses are to be stationed in each suicide unit in Ireland. A joint initiative with the Irish College of GPs that will increase doctor training on the subject has also been introduced.

In December, Minister Lynch promised that the 414 community mental health posts announced in the 2011 budget would be filled by the end of January. So far this figure stands at less than half. The Government cannot make empty promises when so many lives are at stake. Now is the time for action; not lip service.

More needs to be done – both in terms of public information campaigns and financial assistance from the Government. Those in rural areas should have the same level of access to support as those in cities and large towns.

Ireland has made some steps in the right direction where mental health is concerned. However, this is largely due to independent, non-State funded organisations. A collective effort is needed make real progress.

To reduce the stigma that often surrounds mental health issues, honest and frank discussions are needed at family, local and national level.

If you are feeling depressed or suicidal – or want to talk about any aspect your mental health – speak up. For anyone who is concerned about a loved one, listen and show your support.

And for the Government, as Ms Bergin put it; “Recognise that suicide is not going away."


Aware:
1890 303 302; info@aware.ie
GRASP Life:
087 4188053 / 086 6824760; www.grasplife.ie



National Centre for Youth Mental Health:

National Office for Suicide Prevention:
01 6352139 / 01-6352179; info@nosp.ie
NUIG Counselling Service:
091 524411 (ext. 2484); counselling@nuigalway.ie


Pieta House Midwest:
061 484444; mary@pieta.ie

See Change (National Stigma Reduction Partnership):
01 8601620; info@seechange.ie
SpunOut:
01 675 3554; info@spunout.ie

Your Mental Health:



Me, Myself and Mental Health

"March?," I cried.

"How could the next available appointment be in March? It's only early November."

I collapsed onto my bed in a fit of tears, virtually inconsolable. I had finally plucked up the courage to seek professional help and the soonest appointment with a psychiatrist was nearly five months away.

I should state that I am speaking about a personal experience that took place couple of years ago - although I'm not sure whether or not waiting lists have decreased significantly in the interim.

At the time, I decided to go through the public health care system for financial reasons. My parents had paid for me to go to a counsellor in the past and, I'm certain, they would have done so again had I chosen to tell them I had fallen back into the clasp of depression.

To be honest, I had never come fully out of it. I didn't feel as though I was making any progress with therapy the previous year so I stopped going and pretended to be OK again. I chose to keep my mental state a secret this time around - I'm not sure why. Partly due to shame I think.

Luckily, a cancellation meant I was given a new appointment in late January. Not so luckily, it didn't seem to make any difference. I was prescribed more medication and still at a loss of what to do next.

For me, depression started off as a tiny black dot inside my gut. It would increase and decrease in size sporadically. There were times when I could push it away and ignore it; there were times when it impacted on every single action I made.

Since I was quite young, I remember experiencing periods of deep sadness. This feeling was heightened during my teenage years - something put down to angst and hormones (which no doubt did play a role). During my worst period of depression, there were many factors involved. I felt like a huge disappointment in every way: I was unhappy at college; had my heart broken; failed to make a lot of new friends. I felt completely isolated.

At its peak - or rather depth - my depression was almost unbearable. I had lost all hope and saw no way forward. For a period of my life, I thought death was the only way I would find relief from what was now an all-consuming black mass. It had taken my identity; I no longer felt like a person with depression, rather depression itself. The blackness was not in me; it had become me.

I found solace in the face that, even if I didn't go through with it today or next week or next year, suicide was my 'get out of jail free' card. The main reason I didn't end my own life was the realisation of what the repercussions would be on those closest to me.

People often say that suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness, but, to someone in that mind-set, this is not the case. If a person is suicidal it's safe to say that they are not thinking clearly, so don't be so quick to judge.

I became extremely reclusive when I was depressed - I couldn't face being around people. In retrospect, this is one of the worst things I could have done. Engaging with people was one of the reasons my condition started to improve. I know this is easier said than done. I found Aware's anonymous online support group very helpful in this regard - it was a safe, kind place to talk.

When in the throes of depression, there is little, if anything, someone can say that will ease the pain. You may have heard this a thousand times before but PLEASE TALK: to a friend, a family member, a teacher, a doctor, an online support group. Seeking help may seem possible at times but you have the strength to do it. It might be a long road ahead but it does get better. You will feel better and you can be happy.

I don't pretend to know a lot about mental health. Professing a lack of knowledge in this area may, in itself, be the height of understanding some of us can achieve in this regard.

I don't recall why, or exactly when, I began to feel better; but I did. For me medication or therapy didn’t seem to help, interacting with others did. Every person is different, but by reaching out you will find something that works for you.  

Every now and then, I have my bad hours or days or weeks, but I am happy to be alive and to be able to experience life – the good and bad.

If you feel down, talk. Help is there. Life will get better.


This article was also published on Headsup.ie and in Student Independent News, NUI Galway's student newspaper.